Hey World
Since I updated my last blog, a few things have happened in my life.
I started escorting again for about a week, before my mum had a stroke. Which then turned things upside down. Instead of having incalls and outcalls, I've been back and forth between the office job and the hospital. Grabbing few pockets of fun in between.
Fortunately my first two bookings were with previous clients. One flew from Switzerland to come and see me instead of flying straight home to Germany. I was actually worried that I may have lost my swagger. After being out of the game for six months, I was somewhat apprehensive. Luckily for me, I was met with a warm welcome on all bookings. I forgot how good it feels to have the Queen's head and lots of it planted in the palm of my hand. You guys enjoy your "head", whilst I enjoy the Monarch's head on crisp bank notes, without a doubt.
Then unexpectedly two weeks ago my mum had a stroke. A blood clot on the left side of her brain. Unable to walk, talk, move the right side of the body or do any of the basics. It has been a sharp shock to the system. Considering my mum was completely independent and now she's totally dependent. I've been to the hospital more times in the past three weeks than I have in a decade. Recovery is happening, but it's slow. People say to me to remain positive, but seeing her so far away from the person I know her to be just makes me wonder if she'll ever get back to that place again. There are so many "what ifs". It's not even like you can blame the situation and circumstances on a reckless act. It is what it is.
It's also made me realise that life is for LIVING. When something that tragic happens to someone so close, you appreciate how much we take things for granted. How important it is to enjoy life and not live in the "shoulda woulda coulda" zone, waste my life in limbo or let opportunities of happiness pass me by for fear of the unknown.
So much of life is wasted on the proverbial "merry go round". We walk around in our uncomfortable comfort zones, wanting change but not having the conviction to make it happen and secure our happiness. Then we complain but wonder why we're unfulfilled.
What do you want in your future?
Your thoughts..
